Words cannot express the paralization that I felt when I was driving to the hospital. You have always held a special place in my heart,and when you passed apart of me went with you. I will not cry for what might of been just smile for what was and thank god for the time I spent with you. I drew strength from you as a little girl, you were always so tough looking out for me in every endevour. I know now your soul is pacified in a better place where you will continue to look out for me until we meet again.
Long Lost friend / Jeff Roach (cousin) Growing up me and Jake were more than just family we were like brothers. In the last several years Ihave not been around him, since they moved away. The only time i saw him was family functions. My mother called me and told me what had happened, but i did not want to believe it. It just seems like the other day we were in the back yard riding the go cart. (The one that he pissed in) Aunt brenda I love you, and have always looked at you like a mother. You were always there for Jake and Me even if we made you really mad which we did very often. I really regret not being around more often.
Jake's first Christmas in heaven, Please take the time to read this. / Brenda (Mom) To our family and friends,
Our first Christmas without Jake was just the we all thought it would be, very hard and emotional. My children have a way about them that is comforting to me and their dad. I would like to share some of our special Christmas moments with you all in honor of Jake's First Christmas in Heaven
I picked up a present wrapped in silver & gold that I thought was from Denice and read the tag, it said, Mom, this is for you from Jake, I have usually bought his gift for him anyway, why should this year be any different. Love ya, Denice I opened it and it was a beautiful frame with this poem from Jake in it:
Merry Christmas From Heaven
I still hear the songs I still see the lights I feel your love on cold wintry nights
I still share your hopes and all of your cares I'll even remind you To please say your prayers
I just want to tell you You still make me proud And stand head and shoulders Above all the crowd
Keep trying each moment To stay in his grace I came here before you To help set your place
You don't have to be Perfect all of the time He forgives you the slip If you continue to climb
To my dear family and friends Please be thankful today I'm still close beside you In a new special way
I love you all dearly Now don't shed a tear Cause I'm spending my Christmas with Jesus this year.
My mom read the poem out loud for our family, what a special and touching moment it was.
Kayla, Chad & Kynzee got me a memory bag. It had a charm key chain attached to it with two charms on it. A dragonfly and the number 21. Also inside was a journal and a memory book. One the front of the memory book was a dragonfly, insides were sayings and on the back of each of those pages were notes from these very special people in my life. Some of the saying:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but the moments that take our breath away.
The life given us by nature is short, but the memory of a well-spent life is eternal.
Learn from yesterday, live for today and hope for tomorrow.
If I had a rose for every time I thought of you, I'd walk through a garden forever.
Follow your heart wherever it takes you, and be happy. Life is very fragile and only loaned to us for awhile.
IMPORTANT DEFINITION #1..... We will always Cherish 1. to hold dear 2. to treasure, adore, value, love 3. to keep deeply in mind the many, many memories that we so happily made with Jake in the few short years that the Lord allowed
IMPORTANT DEFINITION #2..... Our love is Eternal 1. without beginning or end; everlasting 2. neverchanging 3. never stopping 4. something timeless, uninterrupted and will last Forever for always and endlessly, forever now
IMPORTANT DEFINITION #3 We can all take comfort in knowing that he has found a paradise known as heaven. Paradise 1. Heaven 2. A place or state of great happiness 3. perfection or beauty and peace
They put together a photo album with the picture of Jake and I hugging on the front and some of our favorite pictures of Jake inside.
For their dad, Tyler, Kelly, Kayleb and Dane got him a lighter with a dragonfly on it. It was such a sweet moment between father and son. Mike heart was touched, it was written all over his face. Jake love Coheed & Cambria (which is a band) and Chad, Kayla & Kynzee got him a Coheed & Cambria wallet. He is so proud.
This wonderful family that we have made our first Christmas without our son here on earth a special one. As heartbreaking as it is, each of us gave one another comfort in remembering and honoring Jake in our own special way. He was here with us...in our hearts, thoughts, smiles, tears and memories, as he will be everyday, for the rest of our lives.
We love you all, Merry Christmas from the Schloss family
4 am / Jeff Stone (Brosef) I can't sleep and I found myself here. Jake was the most influential friend I have ever had. I have lived a lot of different places, met and known lots of different people, and no one stands out like Jake. Mel and Mike and I went to see Coheed in Chicago on the 2nd, and I know it was the show you would have wanted your Dad to see. Hell man, I know for a fact you'd have traded April 06 for this one. They played like this 4 song medley that started w/ "Junesong Provision->Everything Evil->Devil In Jersey City->Everything Evil". But hearing those songs (even though they didnt play Delerium Trigger) brought tears to my eyes. I know you were there, but I have to rub it in. I have turned this into a ramble, so i will end with that.
I MISS YA MAN, I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS
To Jake's mom & grandmothers / Shirley, Nana To Heather Griffith
My heart aches for your loss, especially so, since my 21 year old granddaughter, Heather went to be with the Lord on June 23, 2007 at 8:38 a.m. on a beautiful, sunny Saturday morning. She was so full of life and we miss her so. But I also know that nothing ever happens to us that God doesn't allow. I tell my daughter, Heather's mom, that we will never be the same again, but it is up to us to allow God to use this terrible tragedy to make us better and not bitter. Heather left behind a beautiful baby girl, Hadley, who is now almost 7 months old. We will cherish this little piece of Heather and pray that God will keep His loving arms around her and will guide her as she grows up. I pray for you and your family, that you will be comforted, as only God can comfort and that you will be filled with His peace which passes all understanding. May God bless and keep you in His care.
miss you / Lisa Kearney (friend) Jake I missnyour hugs to!!!!!!!!!!!!Luv Lisa
My heartfelt love to all who felt this terrible loss. / Dr. George Kyle (Friend) I wanted to communicate my sense of loss to you but words don't do it justice.
Hadn't seen Jake in a long time but miss the idea that we could see him.
There was never a dull moment with you.. I know I am selfish cause i want you here... But I know you are not fighting anymore... I love and miss you..
RIP/ Diana Crossno (Cousin) We all love and miss you so much
You have given her the strength / Diana Crossno (Cousin) Jake, I know you see your wonderful family and you see their hurt and the pain every day of their lives, not having you with them. Your momma is an amazing women. She has kept you alive in everyone's memories and in her every day life. You are always in our conversation one way or another. Every girls trip, every late night laying on the bed..you are always there. How your momma finds the strength to wake up each morning and bless someones day is beyond me but she does it. She is a light that shines so bright and she carries you with her so that your light never goes out. If you look into her eyes, you see that hurt that is so deep, only a Mother who lost a child would even know how deep it is but she has this desire that runs even deeper to keep you alive in all of us and she has. You are alive every day in your brother, sister, nieces, nephews, cousins, uncles, aunts, grandparents and friends. We all get to share your memories that you left thanks to your family. We miss you Jake and that missing and love will last forever until we walk thru those pearly gates and join you and all the loved ones. I am just jealous that you get to be with Jesus, my Dad, your Grandpa Jack and all of our crazy family before me.Keep giving your momma strength because we need her here for a long while
memories/ Evie Hanson (grandmother) jake miss u so muchwords cant do justice to anything i say. i remember and have pics of u rae lynn and danielle playing house and family on my patio in w. frankfort they are so specialu have your arm around them-so sweet. i watched u grow up u would pack your little suitcase "going to grandmas" to spend the night u made it just fine till almost bedtime then u said u wanted to go home so i took u and just treasured the time you stayed. you were always a home body besides i think sometimes it was because u always forgot your special pillowur mom still has i suppose.then years passed i moved to paducah u called me one day and said u were coming over we had a long talk i prayed for u- u had your face in your hands and criedas i prayedu shed a puddle of tears on the kitchen flooor i know GOD touched u that day. another memory i have that meant so much to meyou would dissapear on family dinner (after eating) i alwas asked where u were nobody knewafter g'pa jack left nursing home i found out u were going to see him and ask him if he needed anything. that was from the sweet heart you had and also the type of love u displayed so jake hug the angels 4 me. i know u r looking down and smiling as u look at those babies u loved to see come through the door on sun. chuckling as u saw them then would pick them up and hold them high! such love for them.so jake till we meet againyour memory stays in my heart and mind---forever.5
memories of jake schloss / Grandma Evie Hanson (g'ma) here i am jake 2 days after ur passingdate my heart is heavy for ur mom denice chad and tyler.we all ate together at denice's house me your mom denice chad ty and your dadkaylakynzeedrake addyzepplin was good for us all but i'm sure the void in our hearts were felt i mis you so much i have your "21" hanging on my rear view mirror i have a dragonfly key chain and a dragonfly necklaceyour mom has been good to give me those thingsfor a long time it was hardto look at them now i love to have them where i can see them because your memory will never go away. i remember the day u came to my apt. on lane rd.and u and i had a long talk i prayed for u i wanted to save the puddle of tears u left on my kitchen floor but just left them there for a long timei know jesus touched you that day i remember u went to leavei was walking you to the door u stopped and we hugged 3 or 4 times you told me each time"i love u grandma" and would kiss my cheek as u left what a memory!!!(it was a short distance to my front door)you were so special. 'till we meet again' IN CHRIST< grandma evie
Comfort from the Bible / Alisha Washington (no relation ) Hello my name is Alisha Washington. I saw that you have suffered a lost in the family and I wanted to share my condolences. There are scriptures in the bible that will bring you comfort during this trying time two of those scriptures are found at John 5:2829 which reads "Do not marvel at this because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out those who did good things to a resurrection of life those who practiced vile things to a resurrection of judgment.” And the other at Rev. 21:45 states "[God] will wipe out every tear from their eyes and death will be no more neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.’ And the One seated on the throne said: ‘Look! I am making all things new.’ Also he says: ‘Write because these words are faithful and true.’”
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JS+LA miss ya! / Lindsay Augustino (X)
I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO THINK I WAS A CRAZY STALKER CHICK BUT WHEN IT CAME TO YOU...I WAS JUST A BIT. I THINK EVERYONE ALREADY KNEW THAT. I'M PRETTY SURE THAT I FORCED YOU TO DATE ME SEVERAL TIMES EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T WANT TO HURT MY FEELINGS..YOU FELL FOR IT! I DEFINATELY FEEL LIKE I WAS MORE IN LOVE WITH YOU THAN YOU WERE ME BUT I DIDN'T CARE AS LONG AS I "HAD YOU". I'M NOT ASHAMED FOR ANYONE TO KNOW THAT ABOUT ME. YOU WERE THE ONLY MAN IN MY LIFE I'VE EVER LOVED! PROMISE YOU THAT!
WHEN I MOVED AWAY AFTER I HAD MY LITTLE GIRL I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME. I ALWAYS CHECKED YOUR MYSPACE I'M TELLIN YA....STALKER~ISH! HAHA!...BUT I STILL HAD AND ALWAYS WILL HAVE A THING FOR YOU. TO THIS DAY DATING HAS BEEN A CHALLENGE FOR ME. I WISH I COULD HAVE WHAT I FELT WHEN I WAS WITH YOU. EVEN IF YOU FELT SORRY FOR ME (WITHOUT THE SAME FEELINGS) YOU STILL MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS YOURS AND BEAUTIFUL.
WE ALL KNOW YOU MADE THE BEST JOKES I LOVED YOUR VOICE. I CAN STILL HEAR IT. WE ARGUED A LITTLE TOO..THE THING IS JAKE...IT WASN'T EASY BEING IN A REALATIONSHIP WITH YOU BUT I WOULDN'T TAKE IT BACK FOR ANYTHING LITTLE MAN! IF I EVER HAD THE CHANCE I WOULD HAVE MARRIED YOU!
What-ifs/ Kayla Schloss (sis-in-law) Jake was my brother-in-law but anyone who knows our family knows that our relationship was much more than that title. He was truly my brother and my friend. Sometimes all of the what-ifs get too much to bear. Today would be his 26th birthday but instead he will forever be 23 as all of us get older. We were the same age so it is especially hard for me to watch his birthday pass without him because I should turn 26 after him. I know where I am in life and thoughts about where he would be right now consume me. I wanted to see his wedding to the woman of his dreams his beautiful babies (cause they definitely would be) I wanted him to see our boy being born for him to watch Kynzee grow up and to see the day that we made contact with Addy again. All of it is passing by so quickly and it just makes every moment a little bittersweet to watch all of these things pass without him here physically. We know he is with us in spirit but that just doesn't compare. I know that this all sounds selfish but it's how we all feel and I just have to get it off my chest before I suffocate.
To Jake I love you so much and I'm wishing you yet another Happy Birthday in heaven...I miss you everyday and I carry you in my heart...I try my best to keep you alive in Kynzee's memory because you adored her so...I watch for all the little signs (especially the 21's)...I'm sending this one out to you (we listened to it on our last "date")..."I wish that I could hold you now I wish that I could touch you now I wish that I could talk to you be with you somehow but I know you're in a better place even though I can't see your face I know you're smiling down on me saying everything's okay I wish...I wish...I wish" - R. Kelly
miss you. / Allie Wheeler (knew him through tessa )
This is the first time i have been on here. i just wanted to say that i miss jake very much. When Tessa and him were together he was kinda like a big brother i never had and even after that he still was. i dont really have a way with words and all i can really say is i along with everyone else miss him alot. i will keep the family in my thoughts in prayers.
I miss you doesn't even begin to cover it! / MOM
I haven't written anything in this part in a long time, mostly because words escape me on explaining how much Jake is loved and missed. No matter where I am, what I am doing, what is going on the hurt of missing him hangs on my heart like a ton of bricks.
As a family, like all other families we had our share of ups and downs, triumphs and heartaches. Through it all we became even closer if that was possible. We each had our role and and our place and through all of the challenges of life we stuck together like glue, supporting one another and trying to help one another through it all.
Jake had a heart that was too big for his head. He worried about things and the people that he loved with a passion and commitment that made life on the inside of him very difficult at times. He would keep what was going on inside him to himself until he would crumble under the pressure of it all and then he and I would have a heart to heart talk that would last alnight sometimes. He worried about me worrying about him. He would tell me all the things that had been stacking up inside of him for months and I would help him sort them and we would talk until he was okay again. Then he would start his worry cycle all over again. He just loved everyone so much and wanted the best for us all, and that is what we wanted for him, everyday of his life. A life that didn't last nearly long enough for anyone who knew him.
Jake was so funny and did the goofiest thing to make us laugh. His silly dances to songs that he loved. His crazy antics at family dinners, his sayings that he came up with that made you wonder "where in the heck did that come from".
Chad and Ty had a band, Chad taught Jake to play the guitar so he could be a part of it with them. He loved it so much. It was so important to him to be a part of what his brothers were doing that he practiced the guitar until his fingers would get sore. He said that they would callus up eventually and it would be okay....and it was.
Denice and Jake had their own special relationship. He looked up to his big sister so much. He would talk to her for advice and they would have their own heart to heart talks. When he thought someone had hurt her he would be so angry and upset. He would show up at her doorstep just because he needed to have some time with his big sis.
Jake and his dad had their problems and they greived Jake so much. But Mike moved to paducah a few years before we lost Jake and Jake moved in with him. I was glad to see that they were trying to mend their relationship because I knew it would help Jake on the inside. There was a hurt inside of him that I couldn't fix because it wasn't about me. It was a hurt about him and his dad, I believe living together helped that, they were able to get to know one another again and build a relationship.
So here we all are, almost two years later and the pain is still so raw that it's hard to breath. I still can't fathom the idea that Jake is not here. How could any of this be real? Stuff like this happens to families all the time yet when it happens to your family there is no way to even begin to belive that it's real. It's just a horrible nightmare, except you never get to wake up.
Our family has a motto now: PRAY FOR US ALL!
So what has change..............-------..-.ev-ery-thi-ng / Chad Schloss (Big Brother ) This would be my first time to place my own thoughts in this part. Not cause i have not wanted to, Just couldnt find the heart to do it. Its been 2 years today its 3:00am ....my mind wonders what was happening at this point two years ago...while i was asleep there were decisions made that would turn our entire world upside down. love. So what has changed everything.................. All I know to do here is send jake a message for me and my heart this is all i can do
Jake From here to there know i love you and always will. There is not a day goes by that your not in my heart and mind. As i promised in our final moments my children will always know you wether here or there. I know this separation is temporary but the time from here to then is gonna be a rough one but be with us. Watch over mom you live in her heart so keep it warm bud. All your nieces and nephews ,watch over them they are yours as much as they are ours. I will never and wont let anyone else forget you (as if they ever could)! I know this is not the way you wanted things but i know god has his plan his timing and your time came and he took you home. Im sorry it took you leaving to completely understand the pain you so desperatly tried to cover. The worlds odd were not fair. But through it all you kept your faith, your word and your sense of humor. Its a lonely place without you..i cant and never wanna fill that void you left. Your story is a short but a hell of read. I love you jacob like you could never understand. Ill see you when i get there but until walk in the happiness you have always deserved. Dont ever let me stray from the path that leads me back to you. Forever and always from the bottom of my heart to depths of my soul, my love, Chad
Miss you / Tessa Hendrix (friend) Well this is the first time i have got to see this, and i have now been on here for 2 hours.. I miss you so much Jake.. I miss everything.. Even the arguements we had..Which were many as everyone im sure remembers!!lol I miss the 2 years we were together even if our parents were right and we wasnt meant to be together.. You gave me your friendship after all we went through and that meant more to me than anything. I want you to know that I listened to your advice even if i acted like i didnt. . I may not have took it.. But i listened.. i swear.. I feel selfish but i want you here.. just as my ear to listen.. you were so good at that.. I can remember those days when we hadnt talked in months and i would be havin one of "those " days thinking and missing my dad and i would call you just to talk cause i knew that you could make me one of two things ..you would either make me laugh being silly and put me in a better mood or end up making me so mad I forgot bout bein sad!! lol.... i think that is what we were best at arguing!!! but either way it worked our friendship made it through it all.. I miss you so much.. Love ya Always .. tessa je'nae and justice la' shea